A reminder to all of us...

Last night I met a friend for a drink. Two and a half hours later I emerged with that same void-of-speech feeling. Of course I talked while I was with Cliff, but when you are sitting in your car alone or in the midst of friends who cannot comprehend it is this feeling of speechlessness or being completely void of any thought. It's almost trance-like. The most humorous event that came out of the past day and a half (well, not including morbid, dark comedy) was when, after talking for hours on end with someone and not having any thoughts left to say I went home, opened the refrigerator to get a bottle of water, and ten minutes later realized I had been standing there with the refrigerator door open (which is an act highly punishable in the McFarland household), just staring at nothing. Looking through the water bottle; without a thought in my head. When I realized what I was doing all I could muster was, "wow", and I moved on. Crazy how thinking and talking can drain you more than running a marathon sometimes.

Anyway, moving on. Pulling out of the parking lot last night a song I had forgotten about filled my car and the words were exactly what I needed to hear. When your faith slips, when you lose who you thought you were, who you thought other people were, when you feel unworthy or broken (and I know we have all been there), God wants us to remember these things. This is for everyone who has ever had those thoughts. Mainly this is for you and me, Cliff, and the conversation we had last night involving our prayers and our worries. I hope we can remember these words always, and remember that God is not finished with us yet, and that His plan for all of His children is far better than we can see right now. This is His promise to all of us.

"You Cannot Lose My Love" by Sara Groves

You will lose your baby teeth.
At times, you'll lose your faith in me.
You will lose a lot of things,
but you cannot lose my love.

You may lose your appetite.
Your guiding sense of wrong and right.
You may lose your will to fight,
but you cannot lose my love.

You will lose your confidence.
In times of trial, your common sense.
You may lose your innocence,
but you cannot lose my love.

Many things can be misplaced;
your very memories be erased.
No matter what the time or space,
you cannot lose my love.

You cannot lose...
You cannot lose...
You cannot lose my love.