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Rainer Maria Rilke...

"For it is not inertia alone that is responsible for human relationships repeating themselves from case to case, indescribably monotonous and unrenewed: it is shyness before any sort of new, unforeseeable experience with which one does not think oneself able to cope. But only someone who is ready for everything, who excludes nothing, not even the most enigmatical, will live the relation to another as something alive and will himself draw exhaustively from his own existence. For if we think of this existence of the individual as a larger or smaller room, it appears evident that most people learn to know only a corner of their room, a place by the window, a strip of floor on which they walk up and down. Thus they have a certain security. And yet that dangerous insecurity is so much more human."

It's that time of year again...

my favorite time of the year...fall. I love fall. I love having to carry a sweater with me. I love sleeping with the windows open and waking up snuggled beneath my down comforter. I love feeling the crunch of fallen leaves under my shoes. In short, I love fall.

I know it's fall when SING and Homecoming at HSU rolls around. This weekend is Homecoming and tomorrow night I am going to SING with my family. This is the first time since 2000 that I have had absolutely nothing to do with SING. I no longer have to make sure everything is going right back stage. I don't have to worry about the cast knowing their lines. I don't have to work with David for hours on end to make sure the script is going to work. I don't have to be nervous as the curtains rise on opening night, which is tonight. I have somehow escaped the realm of SING, and I am so thankful for that fact. Life has been a little more stress-free than it was during this time last year, so...yay!

Speaking of this time last year, my blog celebrated it's first year in existence at the end of September. It's kind of entertaining to look back and see what all was going on in my life at that time. It makes me thankful for the people that are in my life now, and I can see how God has worked in my life during the past year, which is always good to reflect on.

So, other than Homecoming, nothing big is going on. I am working on my thesis, which I need to kick into high gear. I am currently having a love affair with my Powerbook, which I adore. I thought in getting the PB I would spend quite a bit of time working on my thesis, but instead I have just been adding a lot of music, writing obscure things for fun (not work), and talking to friends online. It's no good. I must focus.

Okay, well...I better get back to work. I hope all of you have a fabulous weekend!

Oh, and the "Filthy Lexicon" says, "Where's my Mickey Mouse shirt, b?!"

If it looks like it works and it feels like it works...

then it works.

"Wow"- Snow Patrol

Don't be scared of anything at all.
Everything we have is all we need.
All the spotlights streaming into angry skies
means there's no one watching as we leave.
Say the first thing that
comes into your head when you see me.
If it looks like it works and it feels like it works
then it works.
With the sun on your face
all these worries will soon disappear.
Just follow me now.
Just follow me now.
I find careful patterns in the snow.
It seems you did come around but changed your mind.
If you'd just take ten more steps to me,
I won't ever ask you again.
Just because I couldn't say doesn't make me a liar.
I noticed a change in the tone of your voice.
It's so clear.
My role in this mess
is not something that I can be proud of,
but it's all going to change.
Yes, it's all going to change
All going to change.
Yes it's all going to change.
Say the first thing that
comes into your head when you see me.
If it looks like it works and it feels like it works
then it works.
With the sun on your face
all these worries will soon disappear.
Just follow me now.
Just follow me now.

In cleaning my room...

a letter that I wrote in 6th grade fell out of an old book. Apparently I wrote it to my "boyfriend" and never gave it to him. Oh, middle school.

BJ (annoying little squiggly marks)
Hey! That test really wasn't that hard in history. I forgot to study last night. DUH! (Yes, "duh" is in all caps with an exclamation point.) Do you know Sonya Marean? She says you're a pain in the butt! (Oh, I remember when I used to say butt.) She says you call her names! (Melia, calm down with the exclamation points.) You don't do you? Don't be a jerk. (That makes me laugh.) Speaking of jerks, I have Dru Willis this period! Mrs. McKeever always gets on to him. I don't blame her! He's a little, ugly, squid! (Man...how did I live without using expletives? Oh, that's right. I called people "squids", apparently.) I'm sorry you have math next period. It would be fun if I was in there with you! (I must have really loved this boy to have wanted to be in math with him...thinking it would be "fun". I hate math.)
Love,
Melia (with another squiggly mark and a badly drawn appears-to-be daisy)
p.s. Call me tonight. No, I won't be home. I'll call you but I can only talk for a few minutes!
p.p.s. I can't believe you made me watch Arachnophobia. It was stupid. (To this day, I am sticking to my guns on that one.)

It makes a difference...

"When I Go"- Over the Rhine

It makes a difference
when you walk through a room
with that worrisome smile,
road weary perfume.

But this isn't the place
and it isn't the time
for this beautiful delusion
that is robbing me blind.

I want to know.
I want to know.
Will it make a difference
when I go?

It makes a difference
that I'm feeling this way,
with plenty to think about
and so little to say.

Except for this confession
that is poised on my lips...
I'm not letting go.
I'm just losing my grip.

I want to know.
I want to know
Will it keep you guessing
when I go?

What is a love
if the love's not my own?
This is not my home.
This is lonely,
but never alone.

I just want to hold you
in my gaze for a while
so I can remember
every line around your smile.

Then I want to know.
I want to know.
Will it make a difference
when I go?

"I have a medical condition..."

As you may have read in my friend's (The Tool) blog, this weekend I was in Dallas for Bad Girls' Weekend Vol. 2. I hate to repeat everything Ashley said, so I will try to remember various details she left out. I should just list them...it takes less brain power.

1. Ashley played a tiny guitar on the back porch. Rockin'!
2. Katy makes terrific cocktails. I make cocktails that no one will remember the next morning.
3. I can fall asleep standing up. Is it a gift? Is it a curse? I don't know...it's just a fact.
4. Katy's bike was not stolen off the back of her Passat, but someone did steal the Passat. JK. I think Ashley may have stolen a side-panel though. She's sneaky.
5. I was either married by or married to a guy named Mikey at The Library in downtown Ft. Worth. Where's my damn ring?!
6. La Bamba isn't such a bad movie; I think I saw Katy crying. I am sorry for my snide comments Ashley.
7. I bought the most comfortable shoes in the entire world this weekend, and they were only $20.
8. Katy is extremely talented in getting free drinks for not just herself, but Ashley and me too.
9. There's nothing better than 3 absolutely delirious girls ordering breakfast from a crazy old woman at 4:30am. Katy could barely order her oatmeal through the laughter.
10. When someone says they are buying "sunglasses", they probably aren't. That same person will probably thump you on the forehead later...or tickle you...whatever.
11. At some point, while walking downtown, one of the girls said, "God, I love being a woman!" What does this mean?
12. There is definitely something to be said for lounging around the house all day. I'm for it!
13. Ashley showed off her lock-picking skills with a wooden stick. That's talent.
14. The drive back to Abilene seems a lot shorter when you've got terrific conversation and your best friend.
15. Last but not least..."I have a medical condition!"